Sunday, November 30, 2008

Wax on, Wax off.

what a time to get the news that Eldoo-doo opens tomorrow. now i *have* to go wax!

Saturday, November 29, 2008

HDR

my first try at a HDR image. Let me know what you think.


no photoshop at all, except to remove the watermarks from the trial software.
Its basically a mish-mash of the same photos taken with different exposures to increase the luminance and radiance of the picture. or something like that, i still dont understand it that well and need a lot more practice.

Classic OC from Pluto

Friday, January 30, 2004

A transcript of a recent phone call received at work:

"Hello."

"Hello...ummm....I just wanted to let you guys know that I was at the Matthew Winters parking lot the other day, and I saw one of your company cars, and ummmm....on top of it was an orange singlespeed with a sticker that said...(pause for shock value)......fuck that shift.....and ummm....I just wanted to say that while I wasn't personally that offended I bet if a little kid saw it...well...that would be a bad thing."

"Hmmm...interesting, well thanks for letting us know. Actually that's my bike."

"Oh, ummm....Ok. goodbye."

Friday, November 28, 2008

The world at large

there comes a time when we have to look at the world around us, a time to open eyes and exclaim in absolute wonder, "This shit, is big." A time when comprehension dawns that what is OUT THERE has been around much longer than us, and it is much grander, more eloquent, and more influential because of that. Where this epiphany occurs is not necessarily definable (for some it certainly may be), but when that dawning of recognition occurs, do not, I repeat, do not ignore it. Because, it is our duty, indeed our destiny even, to carry this history, acknowledge and respect it, and place upon it necessary alterations in hopes that some day, way off in the line of time, we can consider ourselves a part of that magnificent history.
For me – and yes I will show some pompous narcissism here – individual action may not affect much. but thats how it has to start. that individual action, however misdirected, aught to influence. I myself have a great deal of influences, collective fragments of long pursued "affectation", that I will capture, modulate, transmogrify, and other such what-have-yous, and later, hopefully pass those along the proverbial chain to the awaiting minds of others. Because, when all those influences aimed at yet ill-fated to intercept the target of affect add up, there will be some affect.
So when you come across a time when you feel very insignificant on this great big rock hurtling through this great big universe – may that be upon summiting a mountain, reading a book, crossing a desert, or even encountering the archived journals of a thought long past – think about what things you your self can influence. Because someone else will appreciate it.

And along a similarly non-coherent and irrelevant path. Recent discovery has unearthed a story. Authored by snoopy (whomever that is, they be stronger than I), this tale is a tragic tale. I feel somewhat small (and by small I mean sick, angry, weak kneed, and light headed) reading it, knowing that it is fellow humans who complete this, and that i-myself have little power to change it. But any further analysis will to little to engage, so i present to you, "His Name Is Sam" a story by Snoopy:


My Name Is Sam


On the first day of class our professor explained to us that he was going to leave the subject manner of our talks up to us, but he was going to provide the motivation of the speech. For instance our first speech's purpose was to inform. I decided to center my six speeches around animals, especially dogs.


For my first speech to inform, I talked about the equestrian art of dressage. For my speech to demonstrate, I brought my German Shepherd, Bodger, to class and demonstrated obedience commands. Finally the semester was almost over and I had but one more speech to give. This speech was to take the place of a written final exam and was to count for fifty per cent of our grade. The speeches motivation was to persuade.


After agonizing over a subject matter, and keeping with my animal theme, I decided on the topic of spaying and neutering pets. My goal was to try to persuade my classmates to neuter their pets. So I started researching the topic.


There was plenty of material, articles that told of the millions of dogs and cats that were euthanized every year, of supposedly beloved pets that were turned in to various animal control facilities for the lamest of reasons, or worse, dropped off far from home, bewildered and scared. Death was usually a blessing.


The final speech was looming closer, but I felt well prepared. My notes were full of facts and statistics that I felt sure would motivate even the most naive of pet owners to succumb to my plea. A couple of days before our speeches were due, I had the bright idea of going to the local branch of the Humane Society and borrowing a puppy to use as a sort of a visual aid. I called the Humane Society and explained what I wanted. They were very happy to accommodate me. I made arrangements to pick up a puppy the day before my speech.


The day before my speech, I went to pick up the puppy. I was feeling very confident. I could quote all the statistics and numbers without ever looking at my notes. The puppy, I felt, would add the final emotional touch. When I arrived at the Humane Society I was met by a young guy named Ron. He explained that he was the public relations person for the Humane Society.


He was very excited about my speech and asked if I would like a tour of the facilities before I picked up the puppy. I enthusiastically agreed. We started out in the reception area, which was the general public's initial encounter with the Humane Society. The lobby was full, mostly with people dropping off various animals that they no longer wanted Ron explained to me that this branch of the Humane Society took in about fifty animals a day and adopted out twenty.


As we stood there I heard snatches of conversation: "I can't keep him, he digs holes in my garden." "They are such cute puppies, I know you will have no trouble finding homes for them." "She is wild, I can't control her." I heard one of Humane Society's volunteer explain to the lady with the litter of puppies that the Society was filled with puppies and that these puppies, being black, would immediately be put to sleep. Black puppies, she explained, had little chance of being adopted. The woman who brought the puppies in just shrugged, "I can't help it," she whined. "They are getting too big. I don't have room for them." We left the reception area. Ron led me into the staging area where all the incoming animals were evaluated for adoptability. Over half never even made it to the adoption center. There were just too many. Not only were people bringing in their own animals, but strays were also dropped off. By law the Humane Society had to hold a stray for three days. If the animal was not claimed by then, it was euthanized, since there was no background information on the animal.


There were already too many animals that had a known history eagerly provided by their soon-to-be ex-owners. As we went through the different areas, I felt more and more depressed. No amount of statistics could take the place of seeing the reality of what this throw-away attitude did to the living, breathing animal. It was overwhelming
Finally Ron stopped in front of a closed door. "That's it," he said, "except for this." I read the sign on the door. "Euthanization Area." "Do you want to see one?" he asked. Before I could decline, he interjected, "You really should. You can't tell the whole story unless you experience the end." I reluctantly agreed.


"Good." He said " I already cleared it and Peggy is expecting you." He knocked firmly on the door. It was opened immediately by a middle-aged woman in a white lab coat. "Here's the girl I was telling you about," Ron explained.


Peggy looked me over. "Well I'll leave you here with Peggy and meet you in the reception area in about fifteen minutes. I'll have the puppy ready." With that Ron departed, leaving me standing in front of the stern-looking Peggy.


Peggy motioned me in. As I walked into the room, I gave an audible gasp. The room was small and spartan. There were a couple of cages on the wall and a cabinet with syringes and vials of a clear liquid. In the middle of the room was an examining table with a rubber mat on top. There were two doors other than the one I had entered. Both were closed. One said to the incinerator room, and the other had no sign, but I could hear various animals noises coming from behind the closed door.


In the back of the room, near the door that was marked incinerator were the objects that caused my distress: two wheelbarrows, filled with the bodies of dead kittens and puppies. I stared in horror. Nothing had prepared me for this. I felt my legs grow weak and my breathing become rapid and shallow. I wanted to run from that room, screaming.


Peggy seemed not to notice my state of shock. She started talking about the euthanization process, but I wasn't hearing her. I could not tear my gaze away from the wheelbarrows and those dozens of pathetic little bodies. Finally, Peggy seemed to notice that I was not paying attention to her. "Are you listening?" she asked irritably. "I'm only going to go through this once." I tore my gaze from the back of the room and looked at her. I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing would come out, so I nodded.


She told me that behind the unmarked door were the animals that were scheduled for euthanasia that day. She picked up a chart that was hanging from the wall. "One fifty three is next," she said as she looked at the chart. "I'll go get him." She laid down the chart on the examining table and started for the unmarked door. Before she got to the door she stopped and turned around. "You aren't going to get hysterical, are you?" she asked, "Because that will only upset the animals." I shook my head. I had not said a word since I walked into that room. I still felt unsure if would be able to without breaking down into tears.


As Peggy opened the unmarked door I peered into the room beyond. It was a small room, but the walls were lined and stacked with cages. It looked like they were all occupied. Peggy opened the door of one of the lower cages and removed the occupant. From what I could see it looked like a medium-sized dog. She attached a leash and ushered the dog into the room in which I stood.


As Peggy brought the dog into the room I could see that the dog was no more than a puppy, maybe five or six months old. The pup looked to be a cross between a Lab and a German shepherd. He was mostly black, with a small amount of tan above his eyes and on his feet. He was very excited and bouncing up and down, trying to sniff everything in this new environment.


Peggy lifted the pup onto the table. She had a card in her hand, which she laid on the table next to me. I read the card. It said that number one fifty three was a mixed Shepherd, six months old. He was surrendered two days ago by a family. Reason of surrender was given as "jumps on children." At the bottom was a note that said "Name: Sam."


Peggy was quick and efficient, from lots of practice, I guessed. She laid one fifty three down on his side and tied a rubber tourniquet around his front leg. She turned to fill the syringe from the vial of clear liquid. All this time I was standing at the head of the table. I could see the moment that one fifty three went from a curious puppy to a terrified puppy. He did not like being held down and he started to struggle.


It was then that I finally found my voice. I bent over the struggling puppy and whispered "Sam. Your name is Sam." At the sound of his name Sam quit struggling. He wagged his tail tentatively and his soft pink tongue darted out and licked my hand. And that is how he spent his last moment. I watched his eyes fade from hopefulness to nothingness. It was over very quickly. I had never even seen Peggy give the lethal shot. The tears could not be contained any longer. I kept my head down so as not to embarrass myself in front of the stoic Peggy. My tears fell onto the still body on the table.


"Now you know," Peggy said softly. Then she turned away. "Ron will be waiting for you." I left the room. Although it seemed like it had been hours, only fifteen minutes had gone by since Ron had left me at the door. I made my way back to the reception area. True to his word, Ron had the puppy all ready to go. After giving me some instructions about what to feed the puppy, he handed the carrying cage over to me and wished me good luck on my speech. That night I went home and spent many hours playing with the orphan puppy. I went to bed that night but I could not sleep. After a while I got up and looked at my speech notes with their numbers and statistics. Without a second thought, I tore them up and threw them away. I went back to bed. Sometime during the night I finally fell asleep. The next morning I arrived at my Speech class with Puppy Doe. When my turn came to give my speech. I walked up to the front the class with the puppy in my arms. I took a deep breath, and I told the class about the life and death of Sam. When I finished my speech I became aware that I was crying. I apologized to the class and took my seat. After class the teacher handed out a critique with our grades. I got an "A." His comments said "Very moving and persuasive."


Two days later, on the last day of class, one of my classmates came up to me. She was an older lady that I had never spoken to in class. She stopped me on our way out of the class room.

"I want you to know that I adopted the puppy you brought to class," she said.

"His name is Sam."

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

And Again



I have come to the conclusion that, with out school or any other form of monotonous time wasting, one could become incredibly fit. another day spent largely in the high alpine. post holing through snow, climbing mountains, jumping off rocks, and other such antics. an other wise chilly and grey day made killer by a hike in the mountains.








Monday, November 24, 2008

Simple Pleasures




Any day above tree line is, quite unassailably and by definition, a great day. (quote slightly modified) And the past few days, up in the mountains, only reinforce in my mind the role that high alpine plays in not only fitness, but life as well. Spending time in the mountains is, for me, something as essential as breathing air or drinking water. Absolutely a vice. The weeks that go by without some sense of adventure, most preferably in the crisp mountain air - whether on foot, bike, or ski, I become agitated, lazy, and bored. In short, i will take my time spent above treeline, because it is easily the most simple and elegant manner of achieving the "high" which too many people pursue in more transient matters, and I will continue to take that for as long as my bones will hold me up to reach the barren tundra.

And if you've had enough of the melodrama, take for example today's hike. The middle boulder creek area has become very familiar to me in the past month, but I do not tire from the repetition because the breeze and the jagged peaks overcome any sense of lameness, and even when you've hiked all the trails, there are still things to do. places to go. sights to see. Stellar company, and a ridiculous amount of hiking, nice to be with some folks that not only keep up, but push it.
And as always, photo dump:





Monday, November 17, 2008

Neglect


Apologies, my friends, for the prolonged silence. And, as life would have it, things are landing on the insanely busy side of things. Dryland for nordic is everyday after school – on the days when I'm not sitting at home working on two weeks worth of statistics homework – and the college application deadlines are moving at a frustrating pace.
I dare say that for the lack of writing, it is not for lack of exploration. but exploration is all quite relative. because, you see, there have been no boundaries expanded, no great frontiers reached. no, but in proper context, small joys may suffice. it is probably the fault of whomever it was, so suffering from a case of major craniophallism who decides to keep me locked in such spheres of boredom and restrain, who made my enjoyment of the discovery (re-discovery albeit) of the ski, and paint, music too.
But i will take them. and you... you will take my pictures of times past. In addition to the certain links ala derecha to the products of boredom and exploration.